It's great isn't it community spirit, when the chips are down.
My hubby always said, here we go another house full and I would too.
Regularly at Christmas two pensioners who lived locally used to come to our for Christmas lunch. It was great fun.
The reason, when I was first on my own I was made a promise I could go to a person's home to join the celebrations which woud have meant a lenghty journey in the car . On Christmas Eve the day to travel I was told it ain't happening.
I had brought loads of gifts for this family but no food or provision for myself.
I quickly did a Tresco shop but it was nearly sold out. Managed to get two manky looking chicken breasts and a few horrible bits of veg and some paxo,.
I was so embarrassed I never told a soul.
I am not religious but that night I went to evening service. The children were carrying candles and singing Christmas Carol. I broke down but pretended it was the children singing the Carols.
I managed to find a small gift for myself and wrapped it up. I had had my tree up..
All my neighbours thought I was away
I got up Christmas morning poured myself a sherry, traditional in our family and continued as normal. Me and the cat had a present each, cooked a love,you dinner, watched the Queens speech and all the other rubbish and ate chocolate in between.
On finding out the following day my neighbours were distraught, so Boxing Day was spent with many different friends. I got particularly drunk on New Years Eve, despite not being a heavy drinker.
I had the worse hangover over and vowed never to let that much alcohol pass my lips again.
From that day I vowed I would never ever, rely on anyone again.
I am also believe it or not am quite timid as my husband says, people tend to over speak me or tell me what I should think. No more. I do have confidence in familiar things such as work and close friends. My mum was always concerned about my shyness, which be crippling at times.
Since 2010 my outlook changed. No longer would I be shouted down or told I never had a voice. My lovely hubby said I have retained my charm but still worries about my shyness at times. I am very friendly to people but cautious.
I regularly volunteer at Sara our local dog shelter and also help fill up the feedings stations.
I am too open and honest and my hubby wishes I was not. I think first for others and their feelings but forget myself.
I can't change that is just me. I do wish I never had a heart at times and could switch off but it ain't me.
Therapy session over folks